Thursday, March 29, 2007
sigh~~~ What happen to me? Its been 2weeks that i'm feeling down... I'm trying my best to be positive, trying hard not to think too much but i think i'm losing control... I start imagining things, i start feeling grumpy about everything n there's no way i can vent it out... Exam coming, meeting project n assignment dateline... uploading my website... meeting clients... work stressing me... i'm getting broke... mummy nagging.... sis having problem come to me... keep quarrelling with dar... i'm bursting... very soon... i'm getting more n more sad each day... i feel like running away again... this thought of running away came back again... i've no time for friends i'm guilty about it... friends dun understand thought i everyday part tor dun want them... i dun feel like explaining much cos if i tell them i dun even have time for myself they wun believe me so what's the point to explain? I can only talk to my cats... talk to the pigs on my bed... Dun even dare to talk to dar... I try to be happy in front of him but i guess he also know i'm very moody... I think its better to be alone so i wun affect anybody beside me... i've so much things hiding inside my heart... i'm bleeding... very badly... all i want now is to cry... cry everything out... juz cry my heart out... maybe i'll feel better... If life is so difficult why should i still hang on? What is life?